“…beware of the dark side. Anger, fear, aggression; the dark side of the Force are they. Easily they flow, quick to join you in a fight. If once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny, consume you it will, …” Yoda, Star Wars
“I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.” Og Mandino
I have been dealing with past issues as of late. Like a call for help, they came out of the darkness to visit yet again. The old childhood anger rises along with a new one and irritates on a daily basis again, ignited by a person from the past. A person stuck in the darkness whose touch infects the soul of others. I am sure all have these triggers…
- Grab pillow.
- Sit or lay.
- Regulate breathing.
- Focus: In being thrust back into a situation that I was once in, I am able to see how far I have come in overcoming many of the angers and old habits that once dominated my life. I am both impressed by the new choices and improved habits that replaced old behaviors (I didn’t even realize how much I had changed), but I see – sadly – how quickly it crumbles when visited upon my house again by the dark. My mind tries to cast off the old patterns and cling to the new, but…. I struggle trying to stop the dark thinking in its tracks and replace it with the better thinking. Doesn’t always work, but I won the battle before and will again… Like a slow beating of a drum, I peck away at the chink in my armor…
- Guided Exercise: I go back to an old one, that must have worked because I have moved on from it: I fly through space, fast and athletically. I imagine myself to be a human Jonathan Livingston Seagull, doing arial gymnastics and laughing like a child. I fly away from the hurt, anger, and helplessness toward the bright colorful nebula in the distance. The nebula symbolizing the new way or path…
Post by Monica Gaylor.